By Now

You'd think I'd have learned by now
It's the definition of insanity
To keep doing the same thing
And thinking this time I'm gonna win

It's the same pattern
In the same board
And I always think
I'm just looking for the right piece
But when you
Make your life a game
You gotta know
It's only yourself to beat

And there's no winning
There's no victory speech
Just the same tired ending
The same empty beach

What is it about this?
What am I trying to undo?
What falsehood do I want to believe?
So much I keep trying to make it true?